RANDOM thoughts....

So, the last four months have flown by so quickly....

I can not believe how big Mianna is getting already. She is so smart and observant, I can't help but smile when I look at her. I have never loved someone so much.....I know, I know sounds typical, but you will see if you don't already. The love a parent has for a child is unmeasurable.

We have been struggling finding a daycare lately. Man, I never realized how difficult it is as a mother to trust ANYONE with your child that isn't you. We had a horrible situation happen at our daycare, long story short an infant died. The situation was not handled properly and we left the daycare. Now seven days later we still cannot find a daycare and we are not impressed with what we are seeing. Stay at home mothers...You are sooo Blessed. Never forget that. Although your role is looked over in the household at times. I would give anything to stay home with my sweetheart everyday and learn from me, not a stranger.















Sweet Angel AJ with Mianna
1/2011-4/2011


I quit Facebook today :) Sounds dumb right? Well I am on strike for now. I feel like people have let it take over somehow. Its pretty scary how much info we share with people we hardly or not to mention the people on our friends lists we don't even know or care to remember! I want to try to live life without the social network scene.... We shall see how it goes. Honestly I think I will be fine, I would much rather have a blog that allows self expression :)

Random tidbit: I drank purple grape soda, had fried chicken and ate watermelon tonight I am a proud Southern food enthusiast!! MMMMMMgood

The Beauty of Change....

The Lotus represents rebirth, purity, Life and new beginnings. the possibility of growing into something beautiful..... Fits perfect for my state of mind

LIFE IS ABOUT PROGRESSION....

Life is Precious right???? So why do we wait till its too late to hold it gently???? I wonder to myself sometimes if am I the reason certain things turn out the way they do....

So I have thought and thought, and pointed the finger at others, and thought some more. Then finally I realize (as an energy efficient light bulb turns on in my head) Hey could it possibly be me? No way! my heart says till the next day and the smoke clears and my emotions shut up... YES Lindsey, IT IS YOU!
Now don't get it confused... I am not saying everything that has gone a way i didn't like was always me, but I am just saying. How often do we spend blaming others for our misfortunes and heartache without actually sitting down and looking at ourselves first??? For me, often. Now me personally I have not experienced much loss in a way, meaning by death. But in my short 27 years, I have experienced the kinds of loss that could have been avoided, meaning things like heartache, friendship, money and opportunity. That could quite possibly have been a direct result of my own actions...
Now for me this sucks to admit, I am a very stubborn and independent woman, and I don't like to be wrong, but I have recently been learning that if you can't admit your faults you will never progress. SO, HERE I AM PROGRESSING WORLD :)

With the birth of my daughter, she has opened my eyes so enormously that I cant help but to grow not only for her but for my own self. So, it is quite fitting she was born on the last day of 2010. That way the new year started my new life... My growth is taking baby steps, and I still stumble a lot but I feel this change in me I cant explain.... Watch out World I am coming

Family Isn't Always By Relation......

Have you ever known those people that you love instantly and have a lifelong bond with? Then you know how much people whom are not even blood relatives can mean to you and your life......

Meet the Phungs... They are the most amazing, loving, strong people I have known in my life. I was blessed to meet them almost 9 years ago and have felt so so lucky to continue to have their love and support!!!! P.S. Aren't they adorable?????

We have a Rainbow Family :) All the colors!!!

My Family.....

This is My amazing family...... I would be nothing without you!!!!

My Love

This is the love of my life Mianna J. She graced us with her presence on December 31st, 2010. I never understood the love you could have for someone you had never met, I though I knew how much I loved her just from carrying her all those months...... Boy was I wrong!! She is the best thing that has ever happened to me.. Life changes in mysterious ways sometimes and I wouldn't change it for anything!!!! I LOVE being a mama!!

A new start...

Well everything else in my life is new, so why not start a new blog? I have never done this but it seems to be quite a hit. So i guess its a learn as you go type of thing, so here i go.....


Back in Utah, back where i swore i would never live again. When i say never, I mean i despised it. And while i think back and wonder what was it that made me really feel so negative about somewhere so beautiful, and held so many memories? Well it took me aproximatly 5 years to finally figure it out.... It took me, getting out in the real world, alone, and hard headed all to come back around to what i knew best. Interesting isn't it? That one could leave and come back with totally different eyes to view the new perspective? To appriciate what has truly been there all along? I dont understand it even still. But one thing i do know is that living in Arizona really made me a better person, a more strong, independant, sucessful woman. A better friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend. And though i didnt follow the path that most that were raised the way i have been did, I found my own path. Whats funny is they all can get you where you need to go, I just didnt use a map...... goodnight and this is like therapy.... who knows if anyone else reads this but this crap really feels good to get things out there...lol who would have known?