Life is Precious right???? So why do we wait till its too late to hold it gently???? I wonder to myself sometimes if am I the reason certain things turn out the way they do....
So I have thought and thought, and pointed the finger at others, and thought some more. Then finally I realize (as an energy efficient light bulb turns on in my head) Hey could it possibly be me? No way! my heart says till the next day and the smoke clears and my emotions shut up... YES Lindsey, IT IS YOU!
Now don't get it confused... I am not saying everything that has gone a way i didn't like was always me, but I am just saying. How often do we spend blaming others for our misfortunes and heartache without actually sitting down and looking at ourselves first??? For me, often. Now me personally I have not experienced much loss in a way, meaning by death. But in my short 27 years, I have experienced the kinds of loss that could have been avoided, meaning things like heartache, friendship, money and opportunity. That could quite possibly have been a direct result of my own actions...
Now for me this sucks to admit, I am a very stubborn and independent woman, and I don't like to be wrong, but I have recently been learning that if you can't admit your faults you will never progress. SO, HERE I AM PROGRESSING WORLD :)
With the birth of my daughter, she has opened my eyes so enormously that I cant help but to grow not only for her but for my own self. So, it is quite fitting she was born on the last day of 2010. That way the new year started my new life... My growth is taking baby steps, and I still stumble a lot but I feel this change in me I cant explain.... Watch out World I am coming
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